baby dreams

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant with twins and I could see the outline of their little bodies pressing through my stomach. Suddenly one of them was born and I was really worried that it wouldn't live b/c it was two months early but then when I looked at it I noticed it wasn't a baby...it was a grown up. It was one of my friends. Actually, it was more like the idea of "one of your fully grown friends" because it wasn't any specific person. I just knew that I knew this person and that it was an adult that could take care of itself. I was sad b/c I had wanted a tiny baby and it was like being given an old adult cat when you're expecting a kitten (I actually thought of that simile in the dream). So anyway, only one of the twins was born and the other was still in there pressing around on my guts. And I asked someone when the other one would be born b/c it didn't seem to be in much of a hurry. And they said that the other baby might wait another 2 months till it was time to be born. And I wondered if my babies could still be considered twins in that case. And then I became convinced that the baby inside of me was dead and that we'd never be able to get it out. It'd just stay in there and my body would very very slowly absorb it. And then I wanted it out...really really bad. And that was the end of the dream.

I blame all of you pregnant people I know.

recent things that have happened

got some boots, went to the adirondacks, ate lasagna, ordered a burmese cookbook for pete, suggested a book to a friend, wrote a shitty speech, continued stalking that internet girl in california, considered making a blog that's just about her blog, put pictures on flickr, cut back on drinking, quit smoking (on a regular basis), hung out with bryn and conway, bought a dress that looks like a candy striper uniform...these are the things life is made of.